=) finally done w/ the dental op. went to CGH early, and the surgeon was late lol, caught in a traffic jam. being wheeled into the operating theatre is quite a new experience, as well as using GA (general anaesthesia). ‘it’s oxygen, breath deeply.’ the lady told me. so i breathed about 3-4 times.. before i simply blacked out. next thing i knew, i was outside the theatre biting on a large piece of gauze, all the teeth already gone. had to take some panadol to settle the pain tho; the bleeding was another irritating factor. mum n stan came at ard 2pm to fetch me home, phewz. the swelling wasn’t as bad as i tot, but yf jus assured me that it’ll get worse tomorrow. sighsh. hurray for painkillers?
got a call fr HWZ regarding an interview =) hope my swelling goes down enough by wed, arrgh else i’ll be missing an opportunity. i wanna watch intolerable cruelty also! pirates of the carribbean already off screen, siansie. there’s still the return of the king & matrix revolutions to look fwd to though.
stan observed the other night that someone had started playing renewal again; but then was it any of my business? good luck to whoever’s the hanger-on/target/victim/close friend/whateva; i hope he enjoys it =) just want my books back.. get it over n done with. -.- too bad i had my dental this morning, hais. i wonder how many people actually bother to read my blog =) pt of interest?
but i think i’m really suited to using alsin; simply cannot be bothered now. phobia against relationships? i think the recent experience’s realli been a great blow to me. perhaps u could liken it to an ongoing internal haemorrhage, unlike a swift thrust to the heart. i’m still alive, but there’s still alot of destructive potential left inside me.. really feel like an empty husk sometimes. the eternal question always returns – what’s the point in living? but yeah, i’m glad i always have my friends to turn to, even though i’ve had to cope with it alone this time round, everyone being busy with their own stuff. like what ah long would say, ‘it’s not all about you!’ yaya.. never all abt me, it’s all abt u lor lol. big shot liao rite? 😛 guess ’tis yet another case of bad timing.. we live and we learn. never to let down our guard again.. NEVER. it doesn’t pay to be too nice aft all, so it’s time to go the opposite tack and get bastardised! =) it’ll be fun to be simply heckcare; to not worry about what you say would have whatever shit consequences. if they dun like what i’m saying.. tooo baddddddd.
i’ve got this new concept for my webpage too, but not done yet. planning to write the chinese characters ‘zang4 xin1’ and a suitable graphic (not 100% worked out yet), black and silvery metal.
yf told me to go for someone.. but nahhhhhh! dun think it’s right. we don’t realli click anyway. i’d rather remain as a friend than to make stupid attempts at relationships.
think that’s enough of my rants for tonight.. hmm. pray hardest for reduced swelling, and increased recovery time for the wed interview. hmm pray? to who sia. i’m a free thinking moron =) maybe to the god of shithappenz, lol.