shithappened ;(

was cycling home amidst heavy rain in the evening, and it didn’t occur to me that my handphone would get wet, duh. just desserts. now i can’t press down, zero and back keys. how am i supposed to use this?!
*bonks self*

current options are..
– repair. (going down service centre tomorrow)
– buy new handphone. but no idea what to buy + spend money. sweatdrops appear on thinking about that. thinking about this phone now.. but kinda pricey.

oh well. see if i can repair the dumb thing first i guess. til den.

astounding heights.
-.- my record for doing work at heights has just reached a new level today. spent an hour or so on top of a super high ceiling, perhaps 10 to 15 metres above ground level? a single misstep would mean launching myself at escape velocity towards the friendly earth, not a nice tot ;p

the dark area above the ceiling seems so safe, what with assuring handholds and nice firm ground to tread.. NOT. turned out that alot of the pipes weren’t firm, and would likely burst in my face if i exerted too much force. same went for the ground; it was merely a plaster ceiling -.- planting half a foot’s worth on it would likely send the workers below gawking at my divine foot appearing in the ceiling, not to mention giving my manager cardiac arrest at the repair bill heh.

missed lunch today, ugh. couldn’t finish work in time, and only managed to consume like two slices of fruitcake at 5pm (lunch? geez). oh well, least i saved money.

finally got my books back, sigh.

despite the good soaking just now, still decided to head down to pasir ris in the end. nothing better to do anyway heh.
walking through the neighbourhood alone in the quiet night, i felt like i was meeting old friends i haven’t seen for some time. the blocks and streets seemed so familiar still; i could almost see two people ahead walking the same road, hand in hand on their way home. and another corner where we sat down while she folded a grasshopper.. on a night that seemed so distant now. illusions of the past 😉

i was having doubts about whether i could really find her place ‘tho, lol. it’s been almost half a year since i last went to her place after all. fortunately, deeply ingrained habits prevailed and i was at the door before i knew it. funny this was the first time i saw her parents up front, now that i think of it. she resembles the dad more than the mum, hmm. they seem like friendly folks.

nothin’ much to it anyway; got my books back (even my vcds, wow) and returned her stuff, all of it. headed home straight, and that’s when i found out my phone was crippled.

and my icq seems to have deleted her off my list automatically without me knowing it, power. asked for re-auth already anyway.

did everything that happen seem like ‘a big tragedy’, like alan put it? nah. not a disaster by any stretch of imagination, but definitely mind-altering. i wouldn’t have imagined myself becoming like this a year ago at least 😉

tomorrow’s last workday of the week + payday! 😉 happiness.

and yeah, before i end this.

thanks to the few people i know who read this pile of shit on a regular basis ;p morit, sleep mei, alan n mebbe rainia. thanks for bothering to read 😉

i need a haircut.

understatement of the month methinks 😉

think it’s been two months since i last had one, and the last one was more like a trim rather than a cut :X and what with grandad’s passing away, and the observance of the ‘say no to haircuts!’ thing during this period of 七七四十九天, hmm. i guess everyone’s supposed to look pretty straggly and unkempt.
some (like uncle david) go to one extreme, not even shaving -.-
others go the opposite tack, and just continue their usual haircuts (e.g. stan, uncle ivan). ‘tho i haven’t seen gerald, i guess he’s one of this group as well 😉

 may 11th’s the last day, and i’m supposed to take leave on that day to pay my respects or something. not that i mind, but i think my moolah’s reaaaaally runnin’ abit low; think i’ll give it a miss.

anyway, think it’ll still be a trim when i visit the saloon; intend to let my dumb hair grow till i can tie it up. *if* my unit doesn’t spring a surprise ict training on me first that is.
heh, the end result’ll prob be:
– frantic haircut-to-decent-length (heart pain bleah)
– dye-hair-nice-and-black. (temp spray to tahan a few days, hiaks)
– take-bloody-earring-out. (which i haven’t done so since after the funeral.. hmm.)

wonder how odd i’ll look; hopefully the darn hair wont get any worse as it is now.

should checkout this song by L’Arc~en~ciel if you have the time.
oops. the title’s 瞳の住人 or Hitomi No Juunin or Hitomi No Jyunin, depends on whoever translated it. the music’s nice, but man.. the vocals are really soaring 😉 rocks.

continued practical lesson on networking equipment during work today, watching my colleagues’ actions and listening to their explanations (upon my dumb questions) as we connected the new network backbone (i.e. optic fibre) to the existing network. fibre patchcords, media converters, all stuff i’ve never heard of in my entire fucking life. fun ‘tho, watching the stuff work.

still got alot to learn before i can fully integrate the physical nuances of structured cabling with the theory of networking.. sigh. seems like maybe even a year isn’t enough; should seriously consider taking cisco certification man if i wanna push hard.
gettin’ my clancy books back from her tomorrow! if nothing goes wrong. finally received her reply via sms just now; seems that she’s flying off to korea for a week, and so i’ll just head down to her place and get my stuff from her mother. not really bothering to ask why she’s going to korea – nomfb as usual 😉 gonna return her books as well; clear the balance hiaks. phew.. one burden off my mind.

sometimes i really wonder why my feelings towards her sortof climbed a steep cliff and plunged into a hellhole.

from mild fondness at the start, to faint stirrings of genuine liking, and on to the madness of all-consuming love.
until overwhelming grief came in and tore it apart.
what remained thereafter was perhaps.. regret.
regret, intermingled with the remnants of that love.

now, one that mocks at the very notion of love,
and laughs with sorrow-laced tears..
crying out with loneliness within the confines of the silent mind.

time dulled the once-keen edge of heartbreak, and the pain is distant.
but sometimes, i look back and wonder, and i ask myself.

‘why did i ever choose to love?’

then again..
maybe she too regrets the fact that she chose a jerk like me in the past 😉
all too possible after all.. all too plausible.


– finished entire collection of dragonball gt *finally*
– completed downloads of visionaries also *finally too*
time to delete all of ’em from my hdd at long last ;p

den again.
– gensou maden saiyuki stil stuck @ ep24, sucks.
– can’t find king arthur and the knights of justice ;( tmd.
– should i continue downloading dear boys anime? ponder.

the weird stuff you resort to when you’ve too much disk space all of a sudden.

uploading IOS settings for cisco wireless adapters in the office today; fun! 😉
esp after slacking half the day away @ tp with another colleague.. :X we even had time to sit at a coffeeshop and watch the japanese show ‘抢救贫穷大作战’ heheh.

chow for tot.
to ask yet or not to ask (female) friends out?

feel so friggin’ bored sometimes, but it seems that i’ll get misunderstood if i stay in touch too frequently, and i think ’tis already happened.

ah, the woes of human relations. sometimes the intent isn’t really that important; what matters is the end result that everyone sees. and of course.. best part is when everyone misunderstands, woohoo.

clear the air of doubts, speak frankly? shrug, i dunno if it even works in the first place 😉

ah, two words: fuck it ;p

let ’em be, and let me be.
alsin as always.

*empty wallet*

the woes of spendin’ time outside ;p went ikea w/ long in the noon, and got hollanded together heh. zero sense of direction both ;p took us awhile to get the right direction to ikea and get the shelf he wanted. i tot the dumb piece of furniture prob couldn’t fit inside a cab, and so.. these two dumbasses (k la. i’m the dumbass not him.) huffed+puffed their way for some distance before long decided to try hailing a cab. luckily he did ;p otherwise we’d have to haul our asses + the shelf all the way to queenstown mrt via foot heheh.

cooling my heels at his place later on and watched a guy teaching his kids how to play badminton downstairs.. gives a feeling of family intimacy 😉 wish i’d something like that for my childhood memories, heheh. too bad.

n yeah, finally got a peek of long’s long-elusive girl ;p not a very clear sighting, but just sufficient i guess. all i can say is.. nice work man 😉

shithappenz (as usual)
was waiting for brian etc to reach suntec (we were supposed to watch kill bill vol2 today) and started playing percussion freaks 7th mix at the arcade nearby. been months since i’d last played, couldn’t control it anymore :X besides, ’tis just a dollar la..;p for 4 songs! too bad i sortof wasted the last song; was happily selecting my last song when this dumb kid strolled over and pressed the start button on the machine.. and ran off.
*horror+open-mouthed* i got myself a level 46 piece to play. of course, i game-overed that round. !@$#$# dumbass kid.

later on…
– last minute changes, ended up watching at shaw tower. nmind.
– one of the guys late, sua. late 20 mins somemore.. pui. missed like 10mins of the show at least ;( i lun. the best is yet to be of course.
– del had an op recently to have double eyelids, power.
– same guy sat beside me during the show, fucking noisy. laughing his ass off, talking so fucking loudly, i would’ve contemplated cussing him till his face caved in if he wasn’t a friend of bri n del. nb.
– seems like extreme deja vu; movie at shaw tower, dinner at a nearby coffeeshop, same table even. exactly the same itinerary we had when bri, del and me watched terminator 3 last year with may, huiwen and cin. maybe i was hallucinating or something, but i tot i saw cin while waiting to jaywalk to bugis junction. hair seemed a ‘lil too long ‘tho, so nah maybe ’tis just me.

kill bill vol 2
anyway, the show more than lacks in action. more like filling in the plot from kill bill vol 1; vol 1 was more like ‘dismember/kill/bleed first, explain later’. full blown action sequences. vol 2 is full of flashbacks and flashbacks and *more* flashbacks.. and dialogues.

LOTR trivia shit.
same guy sayin’ that arwen n aragorn didn’t marry in the end of book 3 of lotr, and that aragorn instead married Éowyn -.- was wondering if i’d read the same edition of the book that he did. so.. i ended up checking the book ;p and i quote.

“…Then the King welcomed his guests, and they alighted; and Elrond surrendered the sceptre, and laid the hand of his daughter in the hand of the King, and together they went up into the High City, and all the stars flowered in the sky. And Aragorn the King Elessar wedded Arwen Undómiel in the City of the Kings upon the day of Midsummer, and the tale of their long waiting and labours was come to fulfilment.

– excerpt from “The Lord of the Rings Part 3: The Return of the King
Book Six, Chapter V The Steward and the King, last paragraph.
(HarperCollinsPublishers, 1999 ed.)

but of course, maybe he read the book and misunderstood the below paragraph instead:

“…But Arwen became as a mortal woman, and yet it was not her lot to die until all that she had gained was lost.

‘As Queen of Elves and Men she dwelt with Aragorn for six-score years in great glory and bliss; yet at last he felt the approach of old age and knew that the span of his life-days was drawing to an end, long though it had been. Then Aragorn said to Arwen:

‘”At last, Lady Evenstar, fairest in this world, and most beloved, my world is fading. Lo! we have gathered, and we have spent, and now the time of repayment draws near.”

‘Arwen knew well what he intended, and long had foreseen it; nonetheless she was overborne by her grief. “Would you then, lord, before your time leave your people that live by your word?” she said.

‘”Not before my time,” he answered. “For if I will not go now, then I must soon go perforce. And Eldarion our son is a man full-ripe for kingship.”

‘Then going to the House of the Kings in the Silent Street, Aragorn laid him down on the long bed that had been prepared for him. There he said farewell to Eldarion, and gave into his hands the winged crown of Gondor and the sceptre of Arnor; and then all left him save Arwen, and she stood alone by his bed. And for all her wisdom and lineage she could not forbear to plead with him to stay yet for a while. She was not yet weary of her days, and thus she tasted the bitterness of the mortality that she had taken upon her.

‘”Lady Undómiel,” said Aragorn, “the hour is indeed hard, yet it was made even in that day when we met under the white birches in the garden of Elrond where none now walk. And on the hill of Cerin Amroth when we forsook both the Shadow and the Twilight this doom we accepted. Take counsel with yourself, beloved, and ask whether you would indeed have me wait until I wither and fall from my high seat unmanned and witless. Nay, lady, I am the last of the Númenoreans and the latest King of the Elder Days; and to me has been given not only a span thrice that of Men of Middle-earth, but also the grace to go at my own will, and give back the gift. Now, therefore, I will sleep.

‘”I speak no comfort to you, for there is no comfort for such pain within the circles of the world. The uttermost choice is before you: to repent and go to the Havens and bear away into the West the memory of our days together that shall there be evergreen but never more than memory; or else to abide the Doom of Men.”

‘”Nay, dear lord,” she said, “that choice is long over. There is now no ship that would bear me hence, and I must indeed abide the Doom of Men, whether I will or I nill: the loss and the silence. But I say to you, King of the Númenoreans, not till now have I understood the tale of your people and their fall. As wicked fools I scorned them, but I pity them at last. For if this is indeed, as the Eldar say, the gift of the One to Men, it is bitter to receive.”

‘”So it seems,” he said. “But let us not be overthrown at the final test, who of old renounced the Shadow and the Ring. In sorrow we must go, but not in despair. Behold! we are not bound for ever to the circles of the world, and beyond them is more than memory. Farewell!”

‘”Estel, Estel!” she cried, and with that even as he took her hand and kissed it, he fell into sleep. Then a great beauty was revealed in him, so that all who after came there looked on him in wonder; for they saw that the grace of his youth, and the valour of his manhood, and the wisdom and majesty of his age were blended together. And long there he lay, an image of the splendour of the Kings of Men in glory undimmed before the breaking of the world.

‘But Arwen went forth from the House, and the light of her eyes was quenched, and it seemed to her people that she had become cold and grey as nightfall in winter that comes without a star. Then she said farewell to Eldarion, and to her daughters, and to all whom she had loved; and she went out from the city of Minas Tirith and passed away to the land of Lórien, and dwelt there alone under the fading trees until winter came. Galadriel had passed away and Celeborn also was gone, and the land was silent.

‘There at last when the mallorn-leaves were falling, but spring had not yet come, she laid herself to rest upon Cerin Amroth, and there is her green grave, until the world is changed, and all the days of her life are utterly forgotten by men that come after, and elanor and niphredil bloom no more east of the Sea.

‘Here ends this tale, as it has come to us from the South; and with the passing of Evenstar no more is said in this book of the days of old.’

– excerpt from “The Lord of the Rings Part 3: The Return of the King
Appendix A, Annals of the Kings and Rulers
Part (v): Here follows a part of the tale of Aragorn and Arwen

(HarperCollinsPublishers, 1999 ed.)

phew, typing all that out was quite a chore :X dunno why i bothered, heh heh.
argh, monday comes again! boring.



tiredddd… eyelids gonna power off any moment liao -.-
hope my net connection doesn’t kill itself again like it did last night.. suddenly found myself exiled without connections to anything *but* kazaa. shrug, least that was working :X
lucky i’ve finished watchin’ ep 17 of gensoumaden saiyuki ;p snooze in peace while waiting for 18 to finish downloading grinz.

‘n since sleep mei’s complaining she’s bored.. will dump a few boliao urls here for y’all to try out as well 😉 don’t scream at me if you don’t like ’em eh?

prend garde à tes fesses chasseur! funny flash game involving a safari hunter wading his way to survival, while being attacked by gay aboriginals 😉 use arrow keys to move, space bar to shoot. control key to reload shotgun if you’ve extra cartridges. (only max 5 shots in gun, so reload fast!)

homemade fusion reactor by student. kewl 😉

happy tree friends. gory cartoon violence ;p what can i say? not for the gentle types.

snowglobe world. something dumb. irritate the inhabitants inside, shake ’em up!

rude food. food w/ obscene soundin’ names.

yo, god! detectors the crazy things humans think of..

love story a la flash clip. titled 辛福相随, very nicely done. not really new ‘tho.

local superhero? gee whiz. least he has the balls to do self-advertising. (Note: this is NOT a kick-ass site.)

think that’s all for tonight, g’nites 😉

*do checkout the beatles’ rendition of last christmas, i think it’s way better than wham’s version of it. disclaimer: imfo of course ;p


all nice and comfy, ready to blog and recount my interesting (not!) life once again ;p hiaks.
more or less done with my to-do list for today anyway.

– finished adding songs to my netmd, namely wu yue tian songs ;p haha.
– tweaking the new dumb photo(s) of yours truly. checkout the dumb pic to the right. mother was commenting that the two pictures didn’t really look alike. sheepish nerd vs blur ah beng? uh duh. couldn’t add that photo to my friendster yet ‘tho, server screwing up as usual wouldn’t let me delete my previous pics. dumbass.
– downloaded gensoumaden ep 11 finally! bwahaha. fun later.
– added one new pic to my amateur photography section; photo of yet another striking sunset (as usual) taken yesterday. check it out 😉 adding a few more pics to my cute kitties section later too btw, more kewt stuff as usual.

time to water my cactus & try to write a day’s worth of events for iam tendem before i head down to saiyuki-watching time 😉


pre-dinner note.

couldn’t paste the url on tagboard ‘cus url too long i think haha ;p so here’s the url mei. happy reading!

(Note: it’s a website for sharpening images, if IIRC)

dinnertime, hungryyy. laterz 😉